{1} In the consideration
of the faculties and impulses--of the prima mobilia of the
human soul, the phrenologists have failed to make room for a propensity
which, although obviously existing as a radical, primitive, irreducible
sentiment, has been equally overlooked by all the moralists who have
preceded them. In the pure arrogance of the reason, we have all overlooked
it. We have suffered its existence to escape our senses, solely through
want of belief,--of faith,--whether it be faith in Revelation, or
faith in the Kabbala. The idea of it has never occurred to us, simply
because of its supererogation. We saw no need of the impulse--for
the propensity. We could not perceive its necessity. We could not
understand, that is to say, we could not have understood, had the
notion of this primum mobile ever obtruded itself; we could
not have understood in what manner it might be made to further the
objects of humanity, either temporal or eternal. It cannot be denied
that phrenology, and in great measure, all metaphysicianism, have
been concocted a priori. The intellectual or logical man,
rather than the understanding or observant man, set himself to imagine
designs--to [38] dictate purposes to God. Having thus fathomed to
his satisfaction the intentions of Jehovah, out of these intentions
he built his innumerable systems of mind. In the matter of phrenology,
for example, we first determined, naturally enough, that it was the
design of the Deity that man should eat. We then assigned to man an
organ of alimentiveness, and this organ is the scourge with which
the Deity compels man, will-I nill-I, into eating. Secondly, having
settled it to be God's will that man should continue his species,
we discovered an organ of amativeness, forthwith. And so with combativeness,
with ideality, with casuality, with constructiveness,--so, in short,
with every organ, whether representing a propensity, a moral sentiment,
or a faculty of the pure intellect. And in these arrangements of the
principia of human action, the Spurzheimites, whether right
or wrong, in part, or upon the whole, have but followed in principle
the footsteps of their predecessors; deducing and establishing everything
from the preconceived destiny, of man, and upon the ground, of the
objects of his Creator.
{2} It would have
been wiser, it would have been safer, to classify (if classify we
must) upon the basis of what man usually or occasionally did, and
was always occasionally doing, rather than upon the basis of what
we took it for granted the Deity intended him to do. If we cannot
[39] comprehend God in his visible works, how then in his inconceivable
thoughts, that call the works into being? If we cannot understand
him in his objective creatures, how then in his substantive moods
and phases of creation?
{3} Induction,
a posteriori, would have brought phrenology to admit, as
an innate and primitive principle of human action, a paradoxical something,
which we may call perverseness, for want of a more characteristic
term. In the sense I intend, it is, in fact, a mobile without
motive, a motive not motivirt. Through its promptings we
act without comprehensible object; or, if this shall be understood
as a contradiction in terms, we may so far modify the proposition
as to say that through its promptings we act for the reason that we
should not. In theory, no reason can be more unreasonable;
but, in fact, there is none more strong. With certain minds, under
certain conditions, it becomes absolutely irresistible. I am not more
certain that I breathe than that the assurance of the wrong or error
of any action is often the one unconquerable force which
impels us, and alone impels us, to its prosecution. Nor will this
overwhelming tendency to do wrong for the wrong's sake, admit of analysis,
or resolution into ulterior elements. It is a radical, a primitive
impulse--elementary. It will be said, I am aware, that when we persist
in acts because we feel we should not persist in them, [40]
our conduct is but a modification of that which ordinarily springs
from the combativeness of phrenology. But a glance will show
the fallacy of this idea. The phrenological combativeness has, for
its essence, the necessity of self-defence. It is our safeguard against
injury. Its principle regards our well-being; and thus the desire
to be well is excited simultaneously with its development. It follows,
that the desire to be well must be excited simultaneously with any
principle which shall be merely a modification of combativeness, but
in the case of that something which I term perverseness,
the desire to be well is not only not aroused, but a strongly antagonistical
sentiment exists.
{4} An appeal
to one's own heart is, after all, the best reply to the sophistry
just noticed. No one who trustingly consults and thoroughly questions
his own soul will be disposed to deny the entire radicalness of the
propensity in question. It is not more incomprehensible than distinctive.
There lives no man who at some period has not been tormented, for
example, by an earnest desire to tantalize a listener by circumlocution.
The speaker is aware that he displeases; he has every intention to
please; he is usually curt, precise, and clear; the most laconic and
luminous language is struggling for utterance upon his tongue; it
is only with difficulty that he restrains himself from giving it flow;
he dreads and deprecates [41] the anger of him whom he addresses;
yet, the thought strikes him, that by certain involutions and parentheses,
this anger may be engendered. That single thought is enough. The impulse
increases to a wish, the wish to a desire, the desire to an uncontrollable
longing, and the longing (to the deep regret and mortification of
the speaker, and in defiance of all consequences) is indulged.
{5} We have a
task before us which must be speedily performed. We know that it will
be ruinous to make delay. The most important crisis of our life calls,
trumpet-tongued, for immediate energy and action. We glow, we are
consumed with eagerness to commence the work, with the anticipation
of whose glorious result our whole souls are on fire. It must, it
shall be undertaken to-day, and yet we put it off until to-morrow;
and why? There is no answer, except that we feel perverse,
using the word with no comprehension of the principle. To-morrow arrives,
and with it a more impatient anxiety to do our duty, but with this
very increase of anxiety arrives, also, a nameless, a positively fearful,
because unfathomable craving for delay. This craving gathers strength
as the moments fly. The last hour for action is at hand. We tremble
with the violence of the conflict within us, of the definite with
the indefinite, of the substance with the shadow. But, if the contest
have proceeded [42] thus far, it is the shadow which prevails,--we
struggle in vain. The clock strikes, and is the knell of our welfare.
At the same time, it is the chanticleer-note to the ghost that has
so long overawed us. It flies--it disappears--we are free. The old
energy returns. We will labor now. Alas, it is too late!
{6} We stand upon
the brink of a precipice. We peer into the abyss--we grow sick and
dizzy. Our first impulse is to shrink from the danger. Unaccountably
we remain. By slow degrees our sickness, and dizziness, and horror,
become merged in a cloud of unnamable feeling. By gradations, still
more imperceptible, this cloud assumes shape, as did the vapor from
the bottle out of which arose the Genius in the "Arabian Nights."
But out of this our cloud upon the precipice's edge, there
grows into palpability a shape, far more terrible than any Genius,
or any demon of a tale, and yet it is but a thought, although a fearful
one, and one which chills the very marrow of our bones with the fierceness
of the delight of its horror. It is merely the idea of what would
be our sensations during the sweeping precipitancy of a fall from
such a height. And this fall, this rushing annihilation, for the very
reason that it involves that one most ghastly and loathsome of all
the most ghastly and loathsome images of death and suffering which
have ever presented themselves to our imagination [43] --for this
very cause do we now the most vividly desire it. And because our reason
violently deters us from the brink, therefore, do we the
more impetuously approach it. There is no passion in nature so demoniacally
impatient, as that of him who, shuddering upon the edge of a precipice,
thus meditates a plunge. To indulge for a moment in any attempt at
thought is to be inevitably lost; for reflection but urges
us to forbear, and therefore it is, I say, that we cannot.
If there be no friendly arm to check us, or if we fail in a sudden
effort to prostrate ourselves backward from the abyss, we plunge,
and are destroyed.
{7} Examine these
and similar actions as we will, we shall find them resulting solely
from the spirit of the Perverse. We perpetrate them merely
because we feel that we should not. Beyond or behind this,
there is no intelligible principle; and we might, indeed, deem this
perverseness a direct instigation of the Arch-Fiend, were it not occasionally
known to operate in furtherance of good.
{8} I have said
thus much, that in some measure I may answer your question; that I
may explain to you why I am here; that I may assign to you something
that shall have at least the faint aspect of a cause for my wearing
these fetters, and for my tenanting this cell of the condemned. Had
I not been thus prolix, you might either have misunderstood [44] me
altogether, or, with the rabble, have fancied me mad. As it is, you
will easily perceive that I am one of the many uncounted victims of
the Imp of the Perverse.
{9} It is impossible
that any deed could have been wrought with a more thorough deliberation.
For weeks, for months, I pondered upon the means of the murder. I
rejected a thousand schemes, because their accomplishment involved
a chance of detection. At length, in reading some French memoirs,
I found an account of a nearly fatal illness that occurred to Madame
Pilau, through the agency of a candle accidentally poisoned: The idea
struck my fancy at once. I knew my victim's habit of reading in bed.
I knew, too, that his apartment was narrow and ill-ventilated. But
I need not vex you with impertinent details. I need not describe the
easy artifices by which I substituted, in his bedroom candle-stand,
a wax-light of my own making, for the one which I there found. The
next morning he was discovered dead in his bed, and the coroner's
verdict was, "Death by the visitation of God."
{10} Having inherited
his estate, all went well with me for years. The idea of detection
never once entered my brain. Of the remains of the fatal taper I had
myself carefully disposed. I had left no shadow of a clew by which
it would be possible to convict, or even to suspect me of the crime.
It is inconceivable how rich a sentiment of satisfaction [45] arose
in my bosom as I reflected upon my absolute security. For a very long
period of time, I was accustomed to revel in this sentiment. It afforded
me more real delight than all the mere worldly advantages accruing
from my sin. But there arrived at length an epoch, from which the
pleasurable feeling grew, by scarcely perceptible gradations, into
a haunting and harassing thought. It harassed because it haunted.
I could scarcely get rid of it for an instant. It is quite a common
thing, to be thus annoyed with the ringing in our ears, or rather
in our memories, of the burden of some ordinary song, or some unimpressive
snatches from an opera. Nor will we be the less tormented if the song
in itself be good, or the opera air meritorious. In this manner, at
last, I would perpetually catch myself pondering upon my security,
and repeating, in a low undertone, the phrase, "I am safe."
One day, whilst sauntering along the streets, I arrested myself in
the act of murmuring, half aloud, these customary syllables. In a
fit of petulance, I remodelled them thus: --"I am safe--I am
safe--yes--if I be not fool enough to make open confession!"
{11} No sooner
had I spoken these words than I felt an icy chill creep to my heart.
I had had some experience in these fits of perversity, (whose nature
I have been at some trouble to explain,) and I remembered well that,
in no instance, I had [46] successfully resisted their attacks. And
now my own casual self-suggestion, that I might possibly be fool enough
to confess the murder of which I had been guilty confronted me, as
if the very ghost of him whom I had murdered--and beckoned me on to
death.
{12} At first,
I made an effort to shake off this nightmare of the soul. I walked
vigorously--faster--still faster--at length I ran. I felt a maddening
desire to shriek aloud. Every succeeding wave of thought overwhelmed
me with new terror, for, alas! I well, too well understood that to
think, in my situation, was to be lost. I still quickened
my pace. I bounded like a madman through the crowded thoroughfares.
At length, the populace took the alarm, and pursued me. I felt then
the consummation of my fate. Could I have torn out my tongue, I would
have done it--but a rough voice resounded in my ears--a rougher grasp
seized me by the shoulder. I turned--I gasped for breath. For a moment,
I experienced all the pangs of suffocation; I became blind, and deaf,
and giddy; and then, some invisible fiend, I thought, struck me with
his broad palm upon the back. The long-imprisoned secret burst forth
from my soul. They say that I spoke with a distinct enunciation, but
with marked emphasis and passionate hurry, as if in dread of interruption
before concluding [47] the brief but pregnant sentences that consigned
me to the hangman and to hell.
{13} Having related
all that was necessary for the fullest judicial conviction, I fell
prostrate in a swoon.
{14} But why shall
I say more? To-day I wear these chains, and am here! To-morrow
I shall be fetterless!--but where?