{1} True!--nervous--very, very dreadfully nervous I had been and
am; but why will you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened
my senses--not destroyed--not dulled them. Above all was the sense
of hearing acute. I heard all things in the heaven and in the earth.
I heard many things in hell. How, then, am I mad? Hearken! and observe
how healthily--how calmly I can tell you the whole story.
{2} It is impossible to say how first the idea entered my brain;
but once conceived, it haunted me day and night. Object there was
none. Passion there was none. I loved the old man. He had never wronged
me. He had never given me insult. For his gold I had no desire. I
think it was his eye! yes, it was this! One of his eyes resembled
that of a vulture--a pale blue eye, with a film over it. Whenever
it fell upon me, my blood ran cold; and so by degrees--very gradually--I
made up my mind to take the life of the old man, and thus rid myself
of the eye forever.
{3} Now this is the point. You fancy me mad. Madmen know nothing.
But you should have [66] seen me. You should have seen how
wisely I proceeded--with what caution--with what foresight--with what
dissimulation I went to work! I was never kinder to the old man than
during the whole week before I killed him. And every night, about
midnight, I turned the latch of his door and opened it--oh, so gently!
And then, when I had made an opening sufficient for my head, I put
in a dark lantern, all closed, closed, so that no light shone out,
and then I thrust in my head. Oh, you would have laughed to see how
cunningly I thrust it in! I moved it slowly--very, very slowly, so
that I might not disturb the old man's sleep. It took me an hour to
place my whole head within'the opening so far that I could see him
as he lay upon his bed. Ha!--would a madman have been so wise as this?
And then, when my head was well in the room, I undid the lantern cautiously--oh,
so cautiously--cautiously (for the hinges creaked)--I undid it just
so much that a single thin ray fell upon the vulture eye. And this
I did for seven long nights--every night just at midnight--but I found
the eye always closed; and so it was impossible to do the work; for
it was not the old man who vexed me, but his Evil Eye. And every morning,
when the day broke, I went boldly into the chamber, and spoke courageously
to him calling him by name in a hearty tone, and inquiring how he
had passed the night. [67] So you see he would have been a very profound
old man, indeed, to suspect that every night, just at twelve, I looked
in upon him while he slept.
{4} Upon the eighth night I was more than usually cautious in opening
the door. A watch's minutehand moves more quickly than did mine. Never
before that night had I felt the extent of my own powers--of
my sagacity. I could scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To think
that there I was, opening the door, little by little, and he not even
to dream of my secret deeds or thoughts. I fairly chuckled at the
idea; and perhaps he heard me; for he moved on the bed suddenly, as
if startled. Now you may think that I drew back--but no. His room
was as black as pitch with the thick darkness, (for the shutters were
close fastened through fear of robbers) and so I knew that he could
not see the opening, of the door, and I kept pushing it on steadily,
steadily.
{5} I had my head in, and was about to open the lantern, when my
thumb slipped upon the tin fastening, and the old man sprang up in
the bed, crying out--"Who's there?"
{6} I kept quite still and said nothing. For a whole hour I did not
move a muscle, and in the mean time I did not hear him lie down. He
was still sitting up in the bed, listening: just as I have done, night
after night, hearkening to the death-watches in the wall. [68]
{7} Presently I heard a slight groan, and I knew it was the groan
of mortal terror. It was not a groan of pain or of grief--oh, no!--it
was the low stifled sound that arises from the bottom of the soul
when overcharged with awe. I knew the sound well. Many a night, just
at midnight, when all the world slept, it has welled up from my own
bosom, deepening, with its dreadful echo, the terrors that distracted
me. I say I knew it well. I knew what the old man felt, and pitied
him, although I chuckled at heart. I knew that he had been lying awake
ever since the first slight noise, when he had turned in the bed.
His fears had been ever since growing upon him. He had been trying
to fancy them causeless, but could not. He had been saying to himself--"It
is nothing but the wind in the chimney--it is only a mouse crossing
the floor," or "it is merely a cricket which has made a
single chirp." Yes, he had been trying to comfort himself with
these suppositions; but he had found all in vain. All in vain;
because Death, in approaching him, had stalked with his black shadow
before him, and enveloped the victim. And it was the mournful influence
of the unperceived shadow that caused him to feel--although he neither
saw nor heard--to feel the presence of my head within the
room.
{8} When I had waited a long time, very patiently, without hearing
him lie down, I resolved to open [69] a little--a very, very little
crevice in the lantern. So I opened it--you cannot imagine how stealthily,
stealthily--until, at length, a single dim ray, like the thread of
the spider, shot from out the crevice and fell upon the vulture eye.
{9} It was open--wide, wide open--and I grew furious as I gazed upon
it. I saw it with perfect distinctness--all a dull blue, with a hideous
veil over it that chilled the very marrow in my bones; but I could
see nothing else of the old man's face or person: for I had directed
the ray as if by instinct, precisely upon the damned spot.
{10} And now have I not told you that what you mistake for madness
is but over acuteness of the senses?--now, I say, there came to my
ears a lone, dull, quick sound, much such a sound as a watch makes
when enveloped in cotton. I knew that sound well, too. It was
the beating of the old man's heart. It increased my fury, as the beating
of a drum stimulates the soldier into courage.
{11} But even yet I refrained and kept still. I scarcely breathed.
I held the lantern motionless. I tried how steadily I could maintain
the ray upon the eye. Meantime the hellish tattoo of the heart increased.
It grew quicker and quicker, and louder and louder every instant.
The old man's terror must have been extreme! It grew louder,
I say, louder every moment!--do you mark me well? I have told you
that I am nervous; so I am. And now at the dead hour [70] of the night,
amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so strange a noise as
this excited me to uncontrollable terror. Yet, for some minutes longer
I refrained and stood still. But the beating grew louder, louder!
I thought the heart must burst. And now a new anxiety seized me--the
sound would be heard by a neighbor! The old man's hour had come! With
a loud yell, I threw open the lantern and leaped into the room. He
shrieked once--once only. In an instant I dragged him to the floor,
and pulled the heavy bed over him. I then smiled gayly, to find the
deed so far done. But, for many minutes, the heart beat on with a
muffled sound. This, however, did not vex me; it would not be heard
through the wall. At length it ceased. The old man was dead. I removed
the bed and examined the corpse. Yes, he was stone, stone dead. I
placed my hand upon the heart and held it there many minutes. There
was no pulsation. He was stone dead. His eye would trouble me no more.
{12} If still you think me mad, you will think so no longer when
I describe the wise precautions I took for the concealment of the
body. The night waned, and I worked hastily, but in silence. First
of all I dismembered the corpse. I cut off the head and the arms and
the legs.
{13} I then took up three planks from the flooring of the chamber,
and deposited all between the scantlings. I then replaced the boards
so [71] cleverly, so cunningly, that no human eye--not even his--could
have detected anything wrong. There was nothing to wash out--no stain
of any kind--no blood-spot whatever. I had been too wary for that.
A tub had caught all--ha! ha!
{14} When I had made an end of these labors, it was four o'clock--still
dark as midnight. As the bell sounded the hour, there came a knocking
at the street door. I went down to open it with a light heart,--for
what had I now to fear? There entered three men; who introduced
themselves, with perfect suavity, as officers of the police. A shriek
had been heard by a neighbor during the night; suspicion of foul play
had been aroused; information had been lodged at the police office,
and they (the officers) had been deputed to search the premises.
{15} I smiled,--for what had I to fear? I bade the gentlemen welcome.
The shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The old man, I mentioned,
was absent in the country. I took my visitors all over the house.
I bade them search--search well. I led them, at length, to
his chamber. I showed them his treasures, secure, undisturbed.
In the enthusiasm of my confidence, I brought chairs into the room,
and desired them here to rest from their fatigues, while
I myself, in the wild audacity of my perfect triumph, placed my own
seat upon the very spot beneath which reposed the corpse of the victim.
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{16} The officers were satisfied. My manner had convinced them. I
was singularly at ease. They sat, and while I answered cheerily, they
chatted of familiar things. But, ere long, I felt myself getting pale
and wished them gone. My head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my
ears: but still they sat and still chatted. The ringing became more
distinct: it continued and became more distinct: I talked more freely
to get rid of the feeling: but it continued and gained definitiveness--until,
at length, I found that the noise was not within my ears.
{17} No doubt I now grew very pale; but I talked more fluently,
and with a heightened voice. Yet the sound increased--and what could
I do? It was a low, dull, quick sound--much such a sound as a
watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I gasped for breath--and
yet the officers heard it not. I talked more quickly--more vehemently;
but the noise steadily increased. I arose and argued about trifles,
in a high key, and with violent gesticulations; but the noise steadily
increased. Why would they not be gone? I paced the floor
to and fro with heavy strides, as if excited to fury by the observations
of the men--but the noise steadily increased. Oh God! what could
I do? I foamed--I raved--I swore! I swung the chair upon which I had
been sitting, and grated it upon the boards, but the noise arose overall
and continually increased. It grew [73] louder--louder--louder!
And still the men chatted pleasantly, and smiled. Was it possible
they heard not? Almighty God!-no, no! They heard!--they suspected!--they
knew! they were making a mockery of my horror l--this I thought,
and this I think. But anything was better than this agony 1 Anything
was more tolerable than this derision! I could bear those hypocritical
smiles no longer! I felt that I must scream or die!--and now- again!--hark!
louder I louder! louder! louder!--
{18} "Villains!" I shrieked, "dissemble no more! I
admit the deed!--tear up the planks!--here, here!--it is the beating
of his hideous heart!"